Ultrasound

Scheduled for tomorrow to see if the IUI is go. My FSH levels were under 10 which is a huge relief since the first RE stated I was perimenopausal. Praying to God this is it and the right time!

Moving on

Needed progesterone to kick start my period again. I think it has really f'ed with these last two cycles. I haven't had a normal cycle since surgery in December. However, I had CD3 bloodwork today to check FSH and Estradiol levels. I begin the Clomid challenge on Friday and go back next Wednesday for another FSH/Estradiol level check. If those numbers are good we will move forward with an IUI. If not, we'll wait another cycle.

There was another woman in the blood draw area at the fertility clinic. I overheard the phlebotomist confirm her 2nd IUI. The woman agreed, adding if the ultrasound looks good this time, meaning she has nice sized follicles. The look on her face said it all. I've been there, I've looked like her. The pain, exhaustion, stress and the feelings of failure are etched in the crease of the forehead, the downward turn of the mouth, the dark circles under the eyes and the haunted look. It just reminds me not to get my hopes up too much because chances of a successful IUI the first, 2nd, or even 3rd time is slim. None of the women I've met or spoken to during this journey who have underwent the same journey at one time or another or are still on it, have had a successful IUI. Well there was one but she miscarried. I don't consider that a success.

If anyone is still reading along, please keep us in your prayers or send us some positive thoughts if you please.